#and my psuedonym

[ferronickel]

So I have made the ill-advised decision to make a bluesky account. If you want to follow me over there and watch me repost Looking Glasses four pages a day, you can find me at my unsurprising handle:

[curiositykilledtheradiostar]

hello everyone i would like to make an announcement. due to reasons im changing the online psuedonym to Radio instead of Curio. good day

[grim-has-issues]

i just realized i have to make another email to publish “My Love Letter to Audio Roleplay” because i refuse to let anyone know my real name.

[slimegirlwarlock]

i was born in the month that windows 95 launched so if anyone gets to claim it as an online psuedonym then i do

[aleixis]

yuta is so wife

wife

[trueshredguitar]

I saw your post tags about transitioning would save Hawkeye pierce and I’m very curious, say more (if you’d like)

hawkeye has a lot of scenes that convey gender nonconformity under a humorous lens. sometimes it’s scenes implying that he’s sexually or romantically attracted to men; these scenes aren’t just “haha he’s expressing attraction to men,” they’re often based around the premise of hawkeye being a wife, being a woman, being pursued/“claimed,” and a shocking amount of references to pregnancy? see: “i know you’re a general and i’m just a captain but i wanna have your baby! i’ll kiss all your stars!”

i.e. the joke being made is about hawkeye liking men but it’s RARELY phrased as him being a homosexual man, it’s OFTEN phrased as him being a heterosexual woman

and sometimes it’s simply scenes calling him a girl or making references to him being soft/feminine/emasculated. often times he will make these jokes HIMSELF and call himself an aunt, a mother, a girl, demure or other adjectives that women were socialized to aspire to in the era. his friends will often refer to him like this without any hint of mocking, just lightheartedness (trapper referring to him as “miz hawkeye”)

i apologize that i don’t have the links right now but if you go into my archive and look in my “mash” tag there are video compliations of a lot of these moments, and the compliations don’t even include all of them

also imo these moments hawkeye has a) contrast with klinger’s relationship to his femininity/gender nonconformity, as he is all about playing with outward presentation, and b) compare with margaret’s relationship to HER gender. which, margaret’s gender by itself is an absolutely wildly progressive examination of womanhood where she is allowed to be “masculine” in many aspects of her life while still asserting herself that she is a WOMAN and always will be despite what she does, or how her life, career, or personality looks. that SHE is the arbiter and determinator of her gender and not how much she keeps into the femininity box. i wish i had concrete examples of why i think this, but it’s been a little bit since i watched the show and i think it’s mostly me reading too much into things

i think also hawkeye’s disassociation issues and complex ptsd is really like. advanced in contrast to other people in the 4077th. he’s the main character for a reason and that’s because he’s the one with the deepest emotional wounds and the drunkest, promiscuous, saddest, most insomniatic doctor in the place. there had been psychological issues in place before he had been sent to korea and none of them were very cut-and-dry as we find.

in conclusion i think the fictional man with noted androgynous presentation who flouts gender conventions as well as masculine army structures and patriarchal power structures and constantly refers to himself as a woman and uses a psuedonym instead of his birth name and has very pronounced psychological issues and self-harming tendencies could be trans in 1950-whatever without good words for it, or be unable to in any way shape or form live authentically, and i think being able to be a woman would have probably made hawkeye’s life just a little bit easier. maybe transitioning wouldn’t save her because estrogen won’t airlift you out of korea but like maybe hawkeye would be a little less buffeted by the outward winds of the world. if any part of the world wouldn’t have buffeted her harder for it, anyways.

i mean, one of mash’s biggest themes at the end of the day is that we’re trapped in the time loop, a small and restrictive and violent thing set up by forces outside of our control that will hurt us if we defy them or dare to do anything the loop doesn’t already contain. and it hurts everyone, all the time, and no one knows why we keep doing it, only that we have to. and hawkeye’s the central victim of this. the time loop is war, the time loop is gender, the time loop is the american empire, the time loop is religion, the time loop is being who you are, forever, as They have forced you to be

[misskattylashes]

My Mistakes Were Made For You

Part three of the Milex Soulmates Saga

Coronation night, 1953, two strangers meet in a bar. It is love at first sight and they feel as though they have known each other forever. They use psuedonyms ‘Philip and Margaret’ in keeping with the day just gone, and spend a magical night together. But forces beyond their control means that one night is all they can have...

1955...Alex Turner is an intelligence officer with MI5, married to a beautiful American woman, and stepfather to a daughter he adores. Miles Kane is a rebel, determined to live as openly gay as he can, at a time when it is still illegal, he mixes with subversives, including his cousin Liam who comes to stay with him after getting on the wrong side of Irish Republicans. When Miles writes an explicit novel about gay men, it is a step too far and he soon is seen as a threat to national security.

When Alex is assigned his first solo assignment - to go undercover to investigate Miles Kane, a man who threatens the status quo, where many high powered men are closeted homosexuals and need to stay that way – he is shocked that this dangerous man is indeed ‘Philip’ who he fell madly in love with two years ago.

Alex accepts the mission, but will he be able to keep it professional and do his duty by his country, or will that unbreakable bond between the soulmates mean he puts himself in grave danger?

More details to follow...

[sparks-chaotic-cove]

Creating character is so fun- especially when they're supposed to represent aspects of you

I've noticed how this goes even as far into chat-sonas!

My sparks and aura sonas aren't really full characters, just really psuedonyms- (garnet [fenris] and periwinkle [Rune] sparks, and Garnet aura! ). A bit of the same for what I used in Icarus's chat- though the choice of soul lantern and Dandelion were important to me!

However, when it gets to where the chat is creatures or even people- that's where it gets more important.

For Ari's chat, (the one time I caught a stream live), I used Flare. I continue to use Flare throughout little drawings. She holds a little source of light, usually a torch or normal lantern! In the calmer times, she'd have a bit of fun holding a flint and steel menacingly. In purgatory, she is occasionally caught with her face deep in a nature related book or tale, or a medical journal/log.

Flare is a bit of me- as well as you can see through my name, "Sparks", intended to light the way. She holds a lantern, which also produces warmth, to both help the other allays and also used to keep them warm when times were tough and their big sis was a bit gone or vexed. Other bits shine through as well- I adore gardening, and I want to work in the medical field. The typical "gross" or "odd" things when it comes to medicine don't freak me out- so Flare's got a bit of that!

For Gyn's chat (ggabraxas), I have Meridee. Gyn's chat is all the old, now-dead leviathans. I'm not in the discord to see too much, but I imagine Meridee as a kind soul with a love for preparing food and also music! Life was tough, but she'd hum songs to the younglings and teach them about the legends and history of the past. A sort of motherly figure!

While Meridee isn't as fleshed out, she's still got bits of me- I love to bake and prepare food, I have started to make music and I love to sing, and storytelling is one of my passions.

To not bore you much longer, whoever reads this far, I've got a few others!

Del - A red-throated hummingbird in Sylph's chat, portrays a bit of chaos as well as caution! Also, she is often found resting on pink or warm toned flower bushes.

Zori - A magpie in Vast's chat! She usually holds a periwinkle, but sometimes picks up a gemstone. She loves little trinkets and makes little dragon-esque hordes of them.

Thank you for reading! if you'd like to share your own chat sonas, I'd love to see them!

[flurty]

i have an idea of just creating a website under my name or maybe a psuedonym and it's just a random picture with no rhyme or reason.

i put that website link on a card like an id card, special print it so it's on hard plastic, and if i ever have a random encounter in life with a person who i know i'll never meet again, i'll give them my card and tell them to keep in touch.

they go to the website and just see a random fucking picture of like a dolphin or something idk.

[deerheadrecording]

hello again

Hi Tumblr, this is will coming at you with hopefully my last rebrand for the forseeable future. I don't use this blog much, but I wanted to inform you of both the name change and some very exciting musical news.

For starters, I've just released a full-length studio album under the psuedonym Wilson D. Blake. It's called East of Nowhere and you can find it at any of the links below. I've been working on it for the past five or six months and it's easily the longest musical project I've ever put out there. I put a lot of effort into this so it'd mean a whole lot if you'd give it a listen.

The release of this album directly coincides with the name change of this blog. During the creation of this album I felt the "will2" psuedonym was too limiting for the kind of music I was making and want to make, so I came up with the idea to create an umbrella I could release music under a variety of psuedonyms are. A few months later and I came up with the name Deerhead Recording. Think of it as a fake record label of sorts. I'll be making much more music under this general umbrella and this blog will mostly become an update page (save the occasional friend reblog, y'all know who you are) for any of that, finished or unfinished, under whatever psuedonym I like.

Tl;dr, I want to be as creatively free as possible, so that's why I'm rebranding. Expect a whole lot more music in the future. I hope you can come along with me for the ride.

[paragonrobits]

The first time Hobie Brown looks at Miles, the world goes green and purple. Not red and blue, like normally happened.

He blinks, behind his mask. This is notable all on its own; he prides himself on his composure, on only showing exactly what he wants to show at the moment. But here it breaks.

And some part of him suddenly feels... loss. An inexpressible sadness flashes through him, and images he’s never seen before; an apartment in a world very different from his own, and yet similar enough that it needed a Spider-Man. A man, very much like a brother he doesn’t talk to anymore; a sister-in-law he’s never met in this life. A huge, forbidding man that reminds him all too well of the corporate scum that made his world in need of a man like him.

There’s other faces too. He doesn’t pay much attention to them, and there’s not a lot of importance drawn to them in this strangely familiar sensation. They’re just faces. He doesn’t care that much about them. They feel like some of the foes he’s clashed with.

For some reason, he remembers a psuedonym he used to use a long time ago. Aaron Davis. Why is it important now? Why is it screaming in his head?

He remembers something he’s never experienced before. A metal suit, a fabric augmenting the physical power of the one wearing it; gloves and boots adhering to walls as easily as wall-crawling would, a big flashy cape made of a smart material so it would be a dramatic glider when he needed it, and move with the wind out of the way when he didn’t. Some part of him thinks Prowler with a warm and giddy feeling that feels more natural that his own name does. It’s the same way he feels when he thinks Spider-Man.

The kid, Miles, pops up in these a lot. He’s... important.

His blood runs cold, and his head pulses; it hurts. Why does he feel like he knows him? Why does it hurt so much?

And why does it feel the exact same way as when he met the other Spider-People but... with a whole different context.

He feels the shadow of another life wash over him, and it leaves behind scattered impressions.

Memories of some other life. He didn’t know Miles Morales, but all the same, he felt like he did.

He remembered blood in an alleyway. A wound draining out the life in him. He remembered grief and shame, a sudden too many promises to himself that he could have been better, should have been better.

Hobie opens his eyes. The feeling fades now.

He’s still left with the feeling that he made this kid a promise.

Hobie rolls his shoulders and gets on with it. Well, he thinks. I always keep my promises.

He pauses for a moment.

Even if it was me in another life that made that promise.

[bvckandeddie]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @devirnis ❤️

How many works do you have on ao3?

if we include both of my ao3 psuedonyms (which we are, otherwise this would be a very boring ask meme) i have 14 works!

What's your total ao3 word count?

561,661 😳

What fandoms do you write for?

i’ve most recently written for 9-1-1, but i’ve also written for Avatar: The Last Airbender.

Top five fics by kudos:

reality strikes, so bring back the night (ATLA)

That Midnight Sky (ATLA)

swords of fate, pride of heart (ATLA)

i could (never) give you peace (ATLA)

what a heart can do (9-1-1)

Do you respond to comments?

i try my best, yes!

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

no angsty endings, god bless 🫶

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh gosh, i don’t know. they’re all happy! i suppose That Midnight Sky because i really put sokka and zuko through it in that one, lmao.

Do you get hate on fics?

uh, yeah, lmao. just once! one of the very first comments on hurt locker was someone who was very unhappy with the decisions eddie made throughout that fic. i think maybe they just didn't understand the concept of POV storytelling ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Do you write smut?

i let much more talented writers than me fill that gap in the literature!

Craziest crossover:

not really a crossover in terms of ao3 categorization, but maybe the Mr. & Mrs. Smith AU i wrote for buddie?

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don’t think so, but i do know that i could (never) give you peace is on goodreads somewhere. wish it wasn’t!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! someone recently translated i could (never) give you peace into russian! super, super cool.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

YES, i co-wrote the amazing fruity beverages with megan aka @engagedzukka aka @crosspin. brainstorming that entire universe and collaborating with such an incredible writer was so fun, and it was a huge highlight of 2021. (hi megan ily 🥰❤️ can you believe we wrote that over three years ago???)

All time favourite ship?

my evergreen relationships that i could go find a fic for at literally any time are stony, arthur/eames, and spirk. buddie though…there’s something really special with them 🥹❤️

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i started a really angsty fic last summer when i was in a bad mood (lol) where eddie and buck kind of knew about the potential of what they could be together. after the lightning strike, eddie was ready to take that next step, but then buck got together with natalia. i kind of just wanted eddie and buck to yell at each other a little bit, y'know? exploring their relationship breakdown was really cathartic for me at the time. with the direction the show is taking now, i don’t know if it’s something that i’ll finish. it seems like the fandom has swiftly moved on from that era of the show, and fair enough. we’re all on the bucktommy train now, right? choo choo! 🚂

What are your writing strengths?

i love writing dialogue!!!! i love writing dialogue so much!!!! it's so snappy and boom boom boom, y'know? all of a sudden i have 1k written and life is amazing.

What are your writing weaknesses?

i really hate inner monologue. i’ll write it, because it’s integral to the story, but I’m never like, oh my god, i’m so thrilled to be writing this inner monologue stuff right now, lol. let’s get back to the meat and potatoes of the story, people! dialogue!

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

i do not know another language, so i tend to steer clear of it, because i know how google translate fails us all.

First fandom you wrote in?

ha. ha ha. the mortal instruments by cassandra clare. i still get occasional favourites on my clace and malec stories from fanfiction dot net. i didn't even FINISH the clace one! anyways.

Favourite fic you've written?

this is hard! i can't pick just one! TMS holds a really special place in my heart because it was the first idea for a story where i was like, wait, i think i could actually write this and finish it. and then i did! and the zukka fandom was so fucking sweet and kind about it.

i’m also really proud of what a heart can do because i was nervous about writing an original child character and i worried i wouldn’t be able to do the story justice. but the reception has been incredible! i genuinely cannot believe i wrote that fic in between doing research and writing my thesis. how did i do that?!?

one fic that i really, really love is swords of fate, pride of heart. i wrote that fic in like, a week. it was insane. the fic is so ridiculous, and it was so fucking fun to write. whenever i get a comment on it, i usually go back and reread a portion of it and i'm always a little in awe of my past self. like, yeah, i wrote that.

this was so fun to do!! tagging @captain-hen @wildlife4life @shitouttabuck @colonoscopys @eddiebabygirldiaz @traumabuddies @try-set-me-on-fire @hattalove and @kananjarus if you feel like it! my activity feed is super messed up rn thanks to that ‘first base is/second base is’ post lmao so i’m really sorry if i missed anyone or if you’ve been tagged already 😭❤️

[faggotry-enjoyer]

if you're here because i reblogged your post with an image description: please edit it into the post. make whatever modifications you want, with or without credit

if you know me in real life: please block me and stay away. i'm not joking, i'm not being hyperbolic. leave.

everyone else: hi

introduction: i'm some guy who hasn't picked a psuedonym. he/it, 18-24, conversion student, disabled transmasc.

this post is required reading (archive link in case my beloved mutual OP deactivates or changes her url), and this post has a number of recommended readings and resources.

pfp source: jewish-microwave-laser

DNI: not really my thing, i'll block you if i feel like it

tagging: i have a very intricate tagging system which i do not fully comprehend. most of my tags are primarily for archival and search purposes rather than filtering, and many of them are vibes-based. if you have anything you'd like me to tag, feel free to ask and i'll either tag it or tell you that i won't.

i take misinformation very seriously. if you see me share some, please let me know in good faith and i will either take it down or publicly correct depending on the exact situation (after verifying your correction, of course). same goes for any and all forms of bigotry and hate. "OP is a Zionist" does not count as good faith correction.

lastly: feel free to say hi, introduce yourself, or reach out in general whether in replies, asks, or DMs. i might take awhile or even forget to respond but i do appreciate it regardless.

[reliquiaenfr]

What is Aphid and Shiana's relationship like?

so shiana and aphid are based on ocs of mine! i looooove talking about my ocs ahaha

shiana is an oracle (in their original story, she's the second in charge of a church of oracles, but in fr she's just an oracle), she's a bit cheeky and doesn't take things as seriously as she ought to - though at least SOME of that is an act, she actually had a pretty traumatic event happen to her when she was younger so underneath the snark, she's very grounded. (the story is that since she can "pull" on the threads of fate to change the future, she thought she could help people and when she was younger she tried to expose someone for their misdeeds by meddling with their future, but it got her mentor killed instead, and since then she's been very VERY careful about what she does with her power). since shiana still wants to help folks, she has to find other ways to do it.

aphid (her real name is tao li, but she goes by aphid, mostly, and also other psuedonyms) is a spy academic. she's from a monastery village, worked in a library, and loves learning things. the only thing she loves more than reading things in a book is learning them in person. she's a bit of a stickler for rules and can come across as having a stick up her butt because she's a bit inflexible and snobbish lol.

all of which is to say that they have the sort of relationship that others look at and go 'but... why tho?' because shiana comes across as way too chill for aphid, and aphid is the kind of person who would unironically wear a no fun allowed shirt. but aphid is the only person shiana ever told the story about her dead mentor and aphid like... gets it. a lot of their initial friendship was built on the possibilities that teaming up would afford them: shiana can see when something unsavoury is going to happen, and aphid has the soft-spoken tenacity to do something about it.

as part of a governing group, shiana had access to a lot of resources, and aphid has the unassuming demeanour to use them without making others suspicious. so they started trying to help people and change the bleak futures that shiana saw without directly rewriting the future. now, they're both different kinds of hopelessly gay, and in exact opposite directions: shiana didn't want to mess things up with aphid bc aphid was like... her best friend, you know? someone who understood her fears and her powers. aphid didn't want to ruin what they had going either, but UNLIKE shiana, she's scarily observant and figured shiana out in ten minutes lmao.

these days, they're the annoying sort of in-synch couple that can have entire conversations in a single glance. aphid is very uncomfortable with public affection, so she often seems quite cold to shiana when others are around, but she absolutely adores that silly woman and she does a lot of things shiana will like (gifts, special date things, massaging shiana's scalp, etc). and although shiana likes to tease her (even in public), she always respects aphid's no pda preferences. it's extremely common for someone meeting them for the first time to have no idea at all that they're together, but once you know it's obvious.

their communication is fucking top notch also. it has to be because aphid can't see into shiana's head to visualise the futures she's seeing and how best to change them, so even before they got together, they were super good at talking things out. aphid's comfort boundaries are so excuriatingly well defined that it's like... shiana knows when it's okay to touch aphid's hand or back or something more intimate and when it's not. and althought shiana wasn't the most comfortable expressing her own boundaries to begin with, aphid is just very blunt about it all, she's like "well see, shiana, i happen to love you and i don't want you to do something that will fuck that up so here is my rulebook" and after that shiana was pretty cool with talking her feelings and desires out.

[daydream-the-demon]

Names I Will Respond to:

Category 1: Actual Name

Alexander - It's my actual name.

Alex - Nickname of Alexander.

Mr. Hyde - I tend to say Hyde as my last name online.

Alex Hyde - Combination of 2 and 3.

Anna (pronounced On-nuh) - It's my deadname.

Category 2: Nicknames

Daydream - I call this my showname as I use it because I use it when presenting online. If I don't want to use my newname but don't want to use my deadname, it also acts as a psuedonym.

Day - It is a shorthand of Daydream.

Category 3: Not My Name

Bill Cipher - I have been called Bill Cipher in 5th grade so continuously that I respond to it.

Alastor - I was continuously called that in 6th grade.

Julian - I tend to respond to the names of the characters I currently obsess over.